It’s been awhile for me

I finally finished MY final editing to my novel to come to The GCP. I don’t what to really to do. I have a few options left. This is only temporary. I wanna show the world my work or a few but I ultimately want to change something the world or one’s opinion. I know I’m rambling but… I’m on this journey to doing something that’s a goal of mine. And on this road I’ve seen some never really come through when I needed them too. To know how important it is to read my story and not do it… they don’t really take it serious. But it’s expected. I first went and spent almost 600 dollars for a conference and most of the agents I got a card from said no once I sent the manuscript. I only have one agent left and it’s been 2 months since she hasn’t gotten back. And by December it’ll be 3 months and once that happens I have to e-mail her back to remind her. But it’s not that I waited for three months, it’s the fact that I wasn’t a regular person who queried, I was given a card and I THINK I should’ve gotten an answer. I’m not mad or upset just in this road where I have to either keep walking or turn back but I’ve gotten this far already. So I’m just standing. I did pull up a list of agents before the conference and I think it’s time I query them.  But I’m waiting on my peers to tell me where I went wrong but there’s no response from them so I’m just going to keep editing every sentence. I’m also just nervous what if they all say no. What then? I’ve done a lot of revisions and some still say I’m rushing. This summer will be 5 years making and editing The GCP. How long do I have to wait to see that the GCP is complete? I know when it’s done and I believe it’s done so how am I rushing? Or how long it takes for someone to read 12 pages. But I don’t want to seem impatient. I guess I was wrong on to write what this blog “Frantzlife” is about. Because this blog I believe now is about my journey and not about writing or advice. Right now there isn’t anybody reading these but read these texts and remember Nothing in life that’s out of the ordinary is easy to achieve. I spent nights and sacrifice days and nights on the GCP and day dream when I took a shower, I jogged and thought of the GCP, and I dreamed of the GCP, I listened to every time of music on thought of the GCP and every idea I put into my story. I watched the skills and style change in this story in 4 years. Now it’s perfected from my revisions. I can honestly say I’ve done everything in power to make the story the best I can envision it. Every single idea that came to mind I thought it through and if others can’t see it or not enough then their just blind in all respect. I love the GCP with all my heart and I couldn’t be proud of myself. I remember thinking of this idea after reading the series of the hunger games in the summer of 2012. I told myself it was impossible for me to make such a story but in a matter of tears I made a story that was impossible for me at first. I actually made a better story than I envision. But like I said if someone come around this post, the road is hard and this isn’t me quitting just me stopping on this journey and reflecting on things. I’m going to stay up all night tonight to make a cover for the “last hope” and make the first or two chapters and upload it on Wattpad. I never had the chance because I had to focus on college and maintain good grades and work to help my family pay the bills. This is part of my life, Frantzlife. I want to say more but this isn’t my journal even though I don’t own one. But Writers and dreamers alike keep fighting for what you dream for. Your dreams aren’t just dreams it’s what you have to reach for and make reality. Love you all whoever stumble upon this in the future. It’s 12:16 am and this is when my creativeness comes alive so I’m going to eat my thanksgiving food then start working on making my dreams come true. Love you all:)